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09 augusti 2013

A new approach to dieting or lifestyle changes in general. Let's see how this goes!

Vikt:	Tappat hittills:	Kvarvarande:	Kosten följs:
118,8 kg	0 kg	57,6 kg	Ganska bra

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09 augusti 2013

Vikt:	Tappat hittills:	Kvarvarande:	Kosten följs:
118,8 kg	0 kg	57,6 kg	Ganska bra

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05 augusti 2013

Yesterday was my birthday. I am now 36 years old. Yesterday was also my jump off day to begin a new me, a new healthy life. It is so true that you must be ready to make a change and I've come to the conclusion that too many excuses for too many years has been enough! So my motivation is up, my energy is through the roof and I hope the momentum will continue. Onward to victory in the battle of the bulge!

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02 augusti 2013

Vikt:	Tappat hittills:	Kvarvarande:	Kosten följs:
119,3 kg	7,3 kg	53,5 kg	Ej tillgängligt

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29 juli 2013

So I totally fell off the wagon! Been working with the doctor on losing weight to no avail. Been going through the entire long process toward bariatric surgery as well but have reached a plateau and can not seem to lose weight. (You have to lose before surgery is okayed). However, I've been having second thoughts about even having the surgery now. I mean, if I can't lose it on my own then surgery is not going to help. I have got to get serious about all of this but I guess this is no different than any other addiction... you have to be ready to change before anything will happen. I thought I was ready for years but clearly I wasn't since my weight just continues to climb. But I'm just so sick of who I see in the mirror- this is not me! I have two kids who rely on me, I'm graduating from grad school next December and will be starting a new career- I have to change. We learn about all the holistic views incorporated into therapy in school and I feel like a hypocrite whenever I discuss healthy eating to clients. I know they look at me like "who are you to tell me to eat healthy?" So I need to do this for my kids, my clients, my family but most importantly- I need to do it for the me that has been lost and buried under all this fat for years! I'm going to place positive affirmations around my house to encourage me to believe in myself more. The bottom line is... this entire struggle with weight has always been a mental thing. It is at the heart of it all a self-esteem and self-worth issue. I don't know if anyone else has this same view but I realized I have tricked myself for years into thinking I was okay with how I looked and felt, that I didn't look that big in the mirror but when I see photos of myself, there is no denying the morbidly obese medical diagnosis. I can't trick my brain when I'm standing next to other people in comparison. I would be so embarrassed if I was a kid and my mom looked like me. I will no longer succumb to my own personal illusions. I will no longer think that I am not worth the happiness and wellness that is entitled to us all. I am worthy of a healthy, energetic life! I will overcome this method of self sabotage and rise up to a place of knowledge, new habits, and a break in the cycle of unhealthy eating that was taught to me. I want my children to never struggle with their weight or how they view themselves. I will change. I will show my family and friends that you can break free from the chains of over eating or emotional eating. The nit and gritty of obesity is that it doesn't just happen. It is indeed a disease, an addiction, and has a mental disability connection in regards to how one views themselves. If I'm truly honest with myself I know I don't think I can lose the weight- I want to, but deep down I've told myself I can't and that I really don't deserve to truly be happy and healthy. I replay past events and blame myself. But the real of is- the past is over and whether it was my fault or not doesn't excuse me slowly killing myself by eating what I want whenever I want. We have one life, one body to get it right and I've screwed mine up for too long. So move over the old me because a new sheriff is in town and this one is about to get things done! Hope this motivation continues because I need to stay on track this time! Whoo hoo!

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