I am back to square 1, things are brutal at home. I don't want to go to a shelter but I am scrambling to find a new place to live. My landlord owns 3 other properties and I have been a good tenant, he is looking for a solution. Right now I am eating whatever. I don't eat alot but carbs affect me, sugar and wine especially.
I feel so sorry for myself that I am allowing myself treats, glasses of wine and dessert. I feel like once I get away from the abuser I am married to I will be able to take care of myself.

I have been getting to the gym 1 day per week, where I go, how much time I have for myself are issues.

I look forward to freedom. In the past to get away from him I lost everything, at my weakest it is hardest for me to be free. I know he is working for this. I am resisiting.

Pray for me.
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Deasmiles you have my prayers!!!! Florida rents in the tampa bay area have shot through the roof. The average one bedroom is running around $1100-$1200 for a small one bedroom. Found one place in a decent neighborhood 2 bedroom for $945-working on getting that and looking at some condo rentals before I make my final decision. Good Luck. What part of the US do you live in? (if you live in the United States)  
24 maj 16 av medlem: Maine coon
in this situation diet definitely comes second...store cash money and dry food ( so you don't have to buy groceries right away when you move) and other things he won't notice somewhere ... get your new place... block numbers and contacts and save yourself before you heal your self. you have time to lose weight when you're out..  
24 maj 16 av medlem: 8hunter6
Sorry, Deasmiles, I did a quick glance at your journal at first, I am very sorry about your home situation. God Bless. 
24 maj 16 av medlem: Maine coon
I don't know what to say, but my thoughts and prayers are with you.  
24 maj 16 av medlem: ginger dog
good luck 
24 maj 16 av medlem: jimmiepop
I live in Austin, Texas. I have a good job, but he is driving me crazy, threats, pushing me around, you can't read, can't watch tv, disconnnecting the internet. He is a mental patient. I have to get away I don't want to go to a shelter, iam moving cloeths to a storage during my lunch breaks. Thanks for the paryers.  
24 maj 16 av medlem: deasmiles
I know you don't want to go to a shelter, BUT PLEASE be SAFE! If that's what it takes for just a little bit, so be it. Your well being is of utmost importance! 
24 maj 16 av medlem: Rckc
Please protect yourself and get out soon. My prayers are with you!! 
24 maj 16 av medlem: ImLaura
http://womenshealth.gov/violence-against-women/get-help-for-violence/safety-planning-for-abusive-situations.html Hope you find a way out and up. 
24 maj 16 av medlem: Five-Two Cowboy
Be safe - wishing you a smooth getaway from that bad situation. And soonest! 
24 maj 16 av medlem: trackin64
Stay strong. My thoughts will be with you.  
24 maj 16 av medlem: Kppgreen
Thank you for the support, one of the things abusers do is make you the victim feel ashamed of the abuse they inflict. My hsuband tells me I am not "allowed" to speak about him ever, he is paranoid, and difficult. It is precisely for that reason I am reaching out. I know I did nothing to deserve any of this some people are just broken.  
24 maj 16 av medlem: deasmiles
Dea, I am praying for both You AND Carmen to make it out. 
24 maj 16 av medlem: knuckles the mgtow monk
Thank you all, again.  
24 maj 16 av medlem: deasmiles
Praying for you Deasmiles 
24 maj 16 av medlem: Bopuc
Stay strong. Maybe a shelter is not so bad Just for a short time, If only to gather your thought and get some money together so you can move on and they might have someone there to help you move in the right direction. Also it's. safe 
24 maj 16 av medlem: Char60
You are in my thoughts, stay strong. Deasmiles make a decision and go for it, don't look back. Once you take the first step it gets easier. 
26 maj 16 av medlem: Zenfreek
We are Praying for you. Abuse is not good and you are coping the best you can. There is help for your situation. Be strong and focus on what you need to do to correct this and you will be in a better place to diet and exercise. 
26 maj 16 av medlem: DBLWING
Stay safe. That may mean leaving immediately or it may mean staying long enough to formulate a safe exit strategy.  
26 maj 16 av medlem: LadyinDenim
I will. Sorry for your situation. Be very careful in getting out of it as things tend to escalate at that juncture. Find a shelter. Staying safe is paramount you can lose weight later. 
26 maj 16 av medlem: brisbee

     
 

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