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I thought I recorded a journal entry last night, but I guess I must have pressed the wrong button since I was kind of tired when I recorded it. I couldn't get to sleep until after I recorded the entry, because something weighed really heavily on my mind last night. I was at a funeral. A former coworker's husband had died. (Just a little history, we used to be pretty good together until our dean had moved me from one department to her department. Then she and 2 other coworkers really gave me a hard time, including made up stories to take to the Dean and they've done it before. Thank goodness he didn't believe them. I'm one of those "stupid people" who will forgive anyone and help anyone out.) I was really nervous about going to the funeral with the expectation of seeing the other 2 coworkers and being asked tons of questions about my promotion after they had retired...a very potentially uncomfortable situation for me. Glad I went, because the only people that showed up were the "outcasts" of our department. (The "outcasts" are a diverse group of coworkers I've clicked with, because we were the victims office drama/politics.) All this aside. The daughter of my ex-coworker's friend made a really rude comment, but I really don't think she meant it in a mean way. It was just something that came out. She told me that I have gained a little weight and filled out my clothing nicely. I told her I actually lost 8 pounds. She then tried to back peddle telling me she meant it in a good way that I have become curvier and have blossomed. Wait....I have always had "dangerous curves," which have always caused me "problems." (Stories for other days.) We're the same age. I'm 56 and really feel I'm done blossoming. I just felt so upset yesterday....feeling I was called fat in a round about way. My friend always encourages me by telling me I'm "skinny." I guess she knows this helps me to keep a positive outlook about my weight. It also encourages me to continue to try to loose more weight. It didn't help, so last night I had trouble sleeping until I typed in my journal entry. I weighed myself last night and I was 148! That's almost back to 150! I feel much better this morning. My shirt is hanging off me and I weighed in at 145. :) Better not much gain, because I know weight can fluctuate just before the next set of pounds rolling off. Thanks for listening.
Visa kostkalendern, 03 augusti 2019:
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1275 kcal
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Fett: 35,29g | Prot: 46,82g | Kolh.: 199,59g.
Frukost: Aunt Jemima Butter Lite Syrup, Plain Pancakes, Blueberries, Reddi-wip Fat Free Dairy Whipped Topping. Lunch: Kraft Light Mayonnaise, Baked or Broiled Salmon, Cucumber (with Peel) , Wegmans Corn on the Cob. Middag: Smart Ones Classic Favorites Ravioli Florentine. Snacks/Annat: Air Popped Popcorn , Rold Gold Pretzel Thins - Original. mer...
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