My whole life have been suffering mentally as I was born in a very evil family and in that way didn't I knew how a real family should look like and how a real man acting and say.

I only got psychopaths men in my life. They never hit me so there was black marks on the body but they hit my heart and brain so I had black marks inside me instead.

That is why my Pancreas have shrunk because of all fears I have had in my life.

I can feel it today when something fearful happen that I get pain inside me.

My gallstone was taken away in 1990 and that is a sign of poor Pancreas and I also had gastric acid every day and ate medicine for it every day.

I do not eat any medicine today for a gastric acid because I am living alone... I am single and my kids are grown ups with their own life and homes.

I have my own church and preach for people about the GOD who come home to me when I was on my way to make a suicide.