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Work is plenty stressful. It's easy enough to fast at work, but coming home, I knew I wanted to eat. I recorded it all, and it's under the maintenance RDI, which shocks me. But I ate it all in one shot, and now I don't want any more food.
Not great choices, but you know, I needed comfort and PB sandwiches are what love tastes like in my house.
I do NOT like picking up extra shifts, but they are short staffed and I decided to help out. Also, I need the money for a Hawaii vacation we are saving for. The thing is, when we invited hubby's folks for an all expense paid week in Hawaii, hubby was making 30% more money than he is now. This puts it all on me to work doubles and sacrifice my days off to pay for the thing.
I already raised enough to cover the cost of an Alaskan Cruise for 8, which is happening next month (us, two grown children, one spouse, and three grandkids.) The kids were initially going to pitch in, but SIL turned on the sob story how they couldn't afford to pay anything, so I picked up the whole cost. What a chump. Daughter is now spending a whole week on vacation alone up north. Couldn't afford to help out, my @$$.
I am hosting a big family dinner on August 6. I was going to rent tables, chairs, and awnings and have it at my house, but my sister went behind my back and convinced my dad it would be better to have it at her work, which is an actual venue for this type of thing. Bottom line, now I have to pack and lug all the food across town, and there will be NO AC for people to retreat to.
I feel so da*n angry and b*tchy! I am, you know, generous to a fault as they say. I don't stick up for myself and people walk all over me. I was raised to be this way. Don't think I can change, but at least I could continue to at least take care of myself, and follow through with my plans FOR ONCE, and show some self love.
No one, nowhere, can make me follow through but me. I would really like to be normal weight. I want to do it so I can live a long life.
So. Rant over.
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2384 kcal
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Fett: 118,58g | Prot: 80,19g | Kolh.: 248,30g.
Frukost: Coffee. Middag: Watermelon, Honey, Orange Juice, Grape Juice, Butter, Trader Joe's Organic Creamy Peanut Butter, Trader Joe's Organic Soft White Bread, Fresh Pork Sausage. Snacks/Annat: 365 Organic Cane Sugar, Butter, Trader Joe's Organic Soft White Bread, O Organics Mozzarella Cheese Sticks. mer...
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