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I've just recently noticed that I only journal when something is going wrong or I'm not doing well...this might be part of my problem lately. There's something to be said for the law of attraction, or idea that we get what we give, in terms of energy and attitude. With that in mind, I think I radiate a lot more negative energy than positive energy (when it comes to fitness), and naturally, it's all coming right back to me! I used to write poetry when I was single (IE. lonely), living in a dead-end town, hanging out with people I didn't really care for, etc, and although I wrote some pretty moving stuff, the more I wrote about and focused on those aspects of my life, the worse they seemed to get! Now that I'm in a loving relationship, in a city full of opportunity, and my life is relatively fulfilling, I find it incredibly challenging to write good poetry, and this bothers me. I would like to get into the habit of using writing as a way to express ALL of my feelings, not just the unpleasant ones. I keep my pride hidden for the most part, maybe in an effort to seem humble, but it's time that I give positive energy an equal opportunity in my life!! What's the worst that could happen?! So I'll start here by saying that I'm proud of myself for coming as far as I have! I have lost weight, gained muscle, found a sense of confidence that I never had before (even when I was thin!), and proved to myself that I am a strong woman...a force to be reckoned with! Life is good!!!
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